i don’t fall in love easily
my heart is too daring
i am afraid of the sacrifices
she can make
i don’t fall in love so easily
two women reside in me
one is made of water
one is made of fire
i cannot get them to get along
i don’t easily fall in love
i often get melancholic
and nectars do not
fall on my pollen grains
i do not exhale
no wonder my heart is heavy
when i want to cry
i steal glances at the past
i borrow memories
of course a sad one
we-don’t-often-remember-the-good-ones
i don’t fall in love easily
i am too loaded with
all kinds of deep seated emotions
behaving like bees
in a trapped cage
unable to hold one
in it’s raw state
i once knocked on the door of healing
knock knock
who is there
it is me
i have come to take you with me
go home child
don’t come here searching
for me when you already have
go home and open your wounded soul
your brokenness is so deep
even in the bed of safety
you are still afraid
so i came to closure
and said
i didn’t come here looking for you
i came here looking for
the piece of myself i left with you
i came here to return
the piece of yourself lost in me
i came here not for you
i came here only to take what is mine
and give you back what is yours
i don’t fall in love easily
because you come to me acting all nice
and i ask myself, is that you?
or just one of the games i blindly fall for
i guess i am just too careful
who calls me sunshine in the morning
who calls me sugar in the evening
i guess i am scared
of the one who stares into my eyes
and call me beautiful with without a blink
i guess i am scared of who holds my hand
and makes me melt at once
who holds me in his arms
and mound my vulnerability into his
i guess i scared of who kisses
me on my neck and signals my body to escape
i guess i am too scared
i am too damn scared
because of all the things
i have feared most
i have loved most
it is not love that people are scared of
it is losing themselves completely in it
i don’t easily fall in love
because when i do
i don’t pick up any thing